you ever just sit there like ‘man a breakdown would be nice right now’ because you’re sitting on all these emotions you can’t express for whatever reason and it’d be nice to get them out in one go
sometimes i get so wrapped up in my own little world then i’ll talk to people and they’ll be like “isn’t the british royal family so cool and classy” and i’m like. girl what
i NEED to sit by the SEA and FORGET that i’m ALIVE
i keep trying to memorize every detail of the moments i live in. in the soreness of my legs from standing so long at a concert, the chill of the night, the patterns of a tablecloth, the oily texture in my mouth after eating fried bananas. i keep trying to memorize the feelings, the quiet contentedness, the laughter, the excitement. i keep trying to memorize the people, their smiles, the way they speak, what makes them laugh. i’m constantly on the cusp of the next part of my life and that’s just so.. strange. but it makes it so much easier to find happiness no matter what’s happening to me, in a way? because i’m already kind of looking at life with those rose-colored glasses of nostalgia, simply because i know these are times i’ll never be able to live again, and these are people i might not always have, and that makes it so much easier to appreciate everything i might miss later.
6l3:
“Too many people are trying to find the right person instead of being the right person.”
u know what’s rough? missing things that are bad for you
truly one of the hardest things about struggling with self destructive behaviour or addiction is how ur brain is sick, and it starts to try and trick you into being sicker. ur brain telling you that its missing pain is not a sign that u should go back into those behaviours. old harmful behaviours won’t bring a brighter future. identify them as disordered thoughts and go against what they are telling you
